Sunday, May 7, 2017

Training Program 2017: Big Sur Half Marathon

Pictured: not me, but after this training program, I'll be this fit!
My friend and I ran the Big Sur Half Marathon on Monterey Bay a few years ago, and loved it. We are both out of shape again, but we have decided to run it again anyway. Last time, I earned my Half Marathon personal record (PR), so I feel good about it, even though it seems like a really long distance given my current level of obesity.

Since I love organizing training programs, I volunteered to chose programs and make a Google Calendar to keep us on track. We will be following Hal Higdon's programs. I created a calendar with Google that has daily events for each scheduled work out. The race isn't until November 2017, so I stacked Hal's Spring Training program with his Intermediate 1 Half Marathon training program. Then, for the additional 3 or 4 weeks until the Spring Training starts, I roughly followed the patterns of the official training programs with even less mileage.

I am really excited to get this started, and I'm hopeful that having set workouts will help my mental health until I finish my Master's program. I'm mildly concerned that I have planned too much for both school, work and fitness, but I haven't been da
ting lately or socializing at all, so I clearly have time to do something other than lay in bed, and play the insomniac game.

I Can't Fuck This Up: The Continuing Saga of My Education

I am still feeling like I am in the wrong field, and I have been struggling even more to keep up at work. Attempting to hit deadlines, maintain my schedule and generally do a good job have left me feeling burnt out and disappointed. Unfortunately, I don't have a backup plan, so I have continued on in this position, and I even signed up for classes again.

If I didn't continue to take classes, I would probably have been fired. I'm really hoping that 1. this isn't a waste of even more money, and 2. that this doesn't send me into another suicidal spiral. I'm not sure how this is going to be any different than previous semesters, but I literally can't fuck this up.

In terms of financial pressures, I managed to pay off my tuition from before, and I set up a payment plan that does not include loans for this upcoming semester. Because my job requires that I pay for experience hours if I leave, I have set up a secondary savings plan to add money to whenever I have an experience hour, so if I can't keep going for some reason, I don't end up even more in debt. The money has not been the truly stressful part of this educational process though. I can't put my finger on what makes school so incredibly horrible for me, but I had the same issues in my first 3 years of undergraduate as I did when I was attempting to take classes for my Master's before.

When I figure it out, I will write another post about it. School starts tomorrow though, so back to the grind

Saturday, December 31, 2016

Happiness and Working Out

About 4 months ago, I transitioned from a failing company with a nightmare boss, to a company that
is in the same field that I am proud to work for. During this transition, I assumed that I would be able to work out regularly because my drive time would be decreasing, but it was more difficult to make time than I thought.

In December, I had a conversation with a friend, and I expressed that I was feeling like I was struggling at work, and might be in the wrong field. When we were talking about why I was unhappy, my schedule was one of my top issues. I really just wanted to be able to get to a class at the gym, and my schedule effectively makes it impossible unless I have a cancellation, or I get up at 4:30am.

Generic cycle class
Generic Cycle Class (Royalty Free)
So I started going to the gym when there were cancellations at work. And I started getting up at 4:30am some days, to get the the morning spin class. I have been really prioritizing cycling classes at my local YMCA. Sometimes I even go to a stretch or yoga class after if it is available and I have time. I am so glad that I kept my gym memberships because it has allowed me to go to the gym the moment I get the idea. The ability to honor my spontaneity has really been a blessing.

Although I have not actually lost any weight in conjunction with my gym visits, I am still really happy with myself. These classes have been making me feel great! I enjoy the soreness that comes with hard workouts and how my lungs feel after getting in cardio, and how bright and happy my outlook is afterwards.